Credit Photo: Morgan Maassen captured the beauty of Byron Bay, Australia from the sea.
‘’I can’t go. 4 years is too long. What if I get sick and can never go where I want to go? Eh? What if that happens??’’ That’s what I told my mom the morning I told her school wasn’t a good idea.
Don’t get me wrong; I was excited for it and so proud of being accepted on the West Coast. But like most things, it was a personal challenge to get accepted and go. The going part hasn’t been necessary, at least, not yet.
I woke up a morning and felt dizzy with confusion. I ignored it, sipped on my coffee while watching surf news and took the first bus to downtown. I randomly called my mom, and suddenly, between a conversation about my sister’s baby and the weirdness of my cat back home, I pronounced 7 words that would forever change my life.
‘’I think I will move to Australia’’.
F**k. What did I just do? Why did I say that? I haven’t even thought of it before, the act of actually doing it. I made a couple jokes about it, but never thought it would become an action. I want to puke. Should I go out of the bus?
Now, I understand, feeling dizzy with confusion in the morning. Now, I understand. My gut’s telling me to go and follow my dreams, so I guess my brain didn’t follow up – it was all about the heart. About what makes me wake up in the morning. About what makes my heart beat harder and louder. About what makes my eyes shine with passion. It was all about the heart. A heart that is, luckily or not, part of a generation where one place isn’t enough – we always need more.
That’s when I realized, we are afraid of commitment. So afraid.
You, me, and the guy living next door, looking at you with envy when you are leaving somewhere new with your backpack. And nowadays, women learn that as well – they can be anyone they want to be, and they don’t need anyone to help them achieve that. Women are ruling the world by now, and if you don’t know about it yet, just check all the Girl Bosses that exist around the world – they’re real badass!
We have taught me at school that “you should go to university, you can travel later”. Like most people say, ‘’it won’t go anywhere – you have time’’. That’s the major mistake in their lives and that’s how they end up in a small city, sharing small talk with their wives about how big the world seemed when they grew up, a bit of nostalgia behind their conversations. A bit of sadness. But mostly, regrets.
We don’t want to put our lives on hold for anyone or anything. We are scared of it because we want more – we want to feel our hearts beat like the first time we went on a plane. We want to enjoy the little things and if one day we decide to fall in love with someone, it’s because they are going to be as passionate as us about love. What’s the point of living in small doses – we are craving for madness. The possibilities are endless, so why stop ourselves from living our dreams?
And you want to know something?
That is totally fineeeeeeeeee!
Cherish that freedom. Fall in love with the smell of a city before dawn and sip on your coffee while talking to a random person in the middle of a village. Enjoy the now, and don’t expect more out of it. Don’t expect anything – let life surprise you. Look at a stranger in the eyes and allow yourself to love him for who he is. Sit on the white sand and listen to the waves coming onto shore. Watch a sunset with new friends at the top of a mountain and don’t touch your phone, just enjoy.
Think about it.
When was the last time you felt alive?
When was the last time you walked on the street and smiled to strangers just because they are there?
When was the last time you talked about your passion and felt the joy inside you, not because you were falling in love, no, because you were doing something for YOU.
When was the last time you felt inspired and wanted to create because you wanted to share your happiness?
If I have only one thing to say about it, it’s that maybe I am a weirdo and the only one that thinks that way – but it would be surprising.
Please, don’t forget your dreams. Don’t be scared of failing. Don’t overthinking – just live in the now. That’s the secret, and it feels good to do it. It’s scary, but everything that scares you is worth it.